But blessed is the (wo)man who trusts in the LORD,
whose confidence is in him. Jeremiah 17:7
So I did something not so smart the other night about 10:30 . In my search to be filled with a wealth of knowledge about infertility and I came across someone's blog that had a surgery that was extremely similar to what I had done. The only thing is that hers didn't turn out so well. She had it done 6 months ago and they still aren't pregnant and with 3 or 4 failed IUIs the Dr. doesn't give them much hope outside IVF. We all know how much that costs...and the fact insurance doesn't pay for it 98% of the time. Needless to say its been hard for me to focus since. Why do I do that to myself? I'm not sure...But it really made me start thinking...why is it easier to trust for other people's miracles but not my own. I know that God has promised us a son and I try desperately to hold on to that promise.
Tomorrow is my follow up appointment for the surgery. I wonder what he's going to say. Praying that if I'm not pregnant (which if I was I doubt I would be up blogging at 11:45 at night) he will give me some meds that will help me ovulate on both sides and we will be able to get pregnant quickly. I still haven't found a blog about someone who is in their mid 30's who had a few repoductive problems and then was able to get pregnant naturally and given birth to a happy healthy baby. I'm sure there is one out there somewhere...who knows maybe I'm sitting here reading the first. :)
Good Night...Pray for a great report tomorrow!